.:the blind leading herself:.
i know that i tend to focus on the more cynical side of life for humors sake. afterall, it’s much funnier to be a cynical bastard and make snide comments than sit there and spout positive stuff all the time. however, every once in a while i’m inspired by something i see.
every once in awhile, i find it incredibly difficult to deal with my ulcerative colitis. while it’s certainly a manageable disease, sometime when things aren’t going well, it can take a hefty toll on your mental state. such was the case the other day as i was walking downtown to meet some people.
as of late, i’ve been feeling this crazy massive anxiety over being in a car for long periods of time. anxiety plays a large role in triggering my stomach off. i start becoming really hot, short of breath and very uncomfortable. luckily, i made it downtown without having to suddenly stop off at a gas station. as i was walking to my destination, i was starting to think about this and i started getting depressed that i have to deal wit this stupid disease. why me? i was feeling pathetic.
right at that moment i looked up and i spotted a blind girl walking towards me, her cane scraping quickly and deliberately across the pavement to ensure her safety in walking.
i couldn’t believe it. she was walking with complete confidence to a destination she had in mind. she was obviously not intimidated by the fact that she was downtown and that there were quite a few people out; she just kept walking along. she came to a crosswalk and acccurately adjusted herself to point in the direction she needed to go. she waited patiently for the light to turn, and when it did, she proceeded to walk out into the middle of the street, her cane tapping lightly against the ground and the fronts of cars, indicating that she was too close to the edge of the crosswalk lines. she adjusted and continued on, eventually disappearing around the corner.
i could not help but stop and stare at this in awe. i immediately felt stupid for feeling sorry for myself, smiled and went on to my way.
sure, i have this problem…but i can deal with it. you can’t always change the situations life brings you to, but you can always change how you react to them…and that can make all the difference…
